When “God closes a door..” I don’t know. I guess there’s a couple different ways you could handle it.
- You could get bitter and slam it right back in His face.
- You could crawl through a window and let yourself in anyway.. OR
- You could trust that regardless of what things look like in that very moment that God’s got your back.
For most people, the second that something goes “wrong” or suddenly doesn’t work in our interest (as far as we can tell), or just isn’t what we planned; we start playing the blame game. We blame God. We act as if we know better than him where our lives should be going or what we should be doing. We want the outcome to be the picture we naively spent so much time perfecting in our minds. We forget that before we even put a hand to it, God has already seen it. He knows the outcome. Whether the outcome is what we want or not is really irrelevant. We need to trust that God is moving on our behalf. I believe God sets people up for success. He does not leave people ill equipped. He does not intend for people to fail.
The last 7 months or so, since the birth of my son, God has really been stirring my heart, preparing me for change; and today change started. For most people the change that I am experiencing would have been hurt or upset. Others would feel betrayed. I feel.. at peace. And oddly so. I don’t have any concerns; although the world would tell me I have plenty to be concerned about. And from a “worldly” perspective that might be true; but when God gives you peace you don’t question it. You take it. Without question. So that eliminates option #1 from the list above.
Knowing that God absolutely has my best interest at heart I wouldn’t dare walk myself into a situation that I know he moved to keep me from. That kicks option #2 off the list.
That leaves us with option #3. I have 100% full confidence in the FACT that God has got my back. Like I said, God has been preparing me for this for months now. Let me share a little more information with you. For the last 5 year (ok, maybe 4 and a half) I’ve been working with a local company that supports families and individuals in the community who may experience a developmental delay. I’ve worked 4 different positions; working my way from “the bottom” up. Last Thursday the company announced that financial demands were requiring them to downsize and when I arrived at work this morning, I along with a few other employees we “laid off.” Not only had that company been my pride and my identity; but it was my security. It allowed me to support my family of four, my education, my passions. It was a sure tomorrow. Even when I wasn’t working I was working. I just loved that company and I loved that job. Even as I am writing this I am recognizing how much I sacrificed for this company and I’m realizing that it was too much. It gave me a lot of what I wanted – but it took a lot of what was valuable; time with my family (my husband and our boys), my personal time/relationship with God. That’s not really the point of this blog but it is worth mentioning.
Anyway, all that being said. I was at the Alaska Youth Conference a few weeks ago with an awesome team of youth and one of my focuses while I was there was direction. I wanted to make sure that I was walking to the beat of his drum and not mine. Relying on his plan and not solely my own (and to be honest, most of the time if you are in God’s will it will line up with your desires). More specifically, I asked God to close the door that lead to opportunities that I should NOT pursue. Sometimes the easiest way to know where to go is to know what places to stay away from. And voila! Look what door just closed!
I know to most this is going to sound like the most ridiculous of testimonies; but the request I presented to God and seeing the events of the past few days.. Isn’t it awesome to know that God hears prayer! Even when it includes loss, God hears prayer and he has your best interest at heart. I don’t have all of the answers. I don’t have to know exactly what comes next to know that my well being and the well being of my family rests in God’s hands. I believe that is why I have felt such peace in this. I believe that a positive response to this situation set my faith in motion (action is faith in motion).
Isaiah 30:18 says “Blessed are those who look for, who long for, and who expect His victory, His favor, His joy, His peace.”
When things aren’t going your way you planned or the way you expected, look for victory. I guarantee there is one. Expect victory and while you wait, pray for peace and expect God to provide it. Remember God does not leave people ill equipped for “battle.” And if he does, well.. That story is a miracle in the making. Either way, start claiming your victory. Walk away from the closed door.