Am I Good Enough to Be Loved By God?
I ask myself this question a lot. Sometimes as a heart check but mostly out of curiosity. Does God see good when He sees me? Because I’ll be honest when I look at my life sometimes the mess over shadows the good. Do you know what I mean?
I think about the mistakes I’ve made and I feel shame.
I think about the bad choices I’ve made guilt pours over me.
Does God see this messy life I’m living?
When You Don’t Feel Good Enough
There are two lies I’ve spent a lifetime battling:
1 | I’m not good enough to be loved by God.
2 | I’m not good enough to be called a Christian.
What’s interesting is that there is some truth to both of these statements. It’s twisted but fragments of it are there. It’s true there is nothing I could possibly do to earn God’s love. In that way I’m not good enough. But that’s also not the standard of measurement God uses to determine who or how He loves . So do I need to worry about being good enough? Thankfully, no.
Am I good enough to be called a Christian? Well that’s a whole separate can of worms. The short answer; I’m learning. And I always will be. My representation of Him (how I live my life) isn’t perfect. The call to holiness; “be holy, like I am holy (see Leviticus 11:44-45 and 1 Peter 1:16),” is a heavy call. I have yet to meet a person who has mastered living a 100% holy, sanctified, consecrated life. Thank God for grace because I’ll be the first to admit I need it. I’m very aware of my flaws and imperfections. If you’ve been around for a minute, you’re probably somewhat aware of them too. Some days I honestly don’t feel good enough to be on the receiving end of God’s love. And yet, I am.
He’s just good like. We serve a God who isn’t afraid of our mess but embraces us in the midst of it. Romans 5:8 (nkjv) reads,
But God demonstrates His own love toward us,
in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Our Messy Lives, His Great Love
While we were sinners, while our lives were a mess, while we were prodigals, while we were far off from the life He had called us to live… It was then that He demonstrated the greatest act of love you and I could come to know.
Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.
Our lives; our identities are forever changed because of that one moment.
Have you ever looked in the mirror and wondered what does God see when He looks at me? Do you ever question His love for you, wonder if He really sees you or if your mess causes Him to look at you differently? If so, I’ve got some solid uplifting words ready and waiting for you to read over at One Determined Life. Join us?